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Ah...I made it through week 1!

This weeks topic: “I Don’t Care About Apathy: What I "Should" Care About – But Don’t”.

*puts on hazmat suit and flame safe clothing*

Of late I've grown to love my apathy. In fact, it is something of a best friend these days. It is not the fact that I'm without compassion or concern, but more like I'm tired of the bitching and moaning.

Here is a simple fact: shit happens.

Yes...as hard to swallow as it may seem, shit happens. While I don't always like it, and it is sometimes hard to get rid of, there will always be some kind of shit to deal with.

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

In May of 1989 I graduated from high school. A few of us started the "rumor" that no one was going to throw up their cap at the end of the ceremony. Why should we...our class was given the title of "the class that doesn't care." Throwing our caps might show a bit of concern about our future. Hell...we all knew we were screwed...it was all the media fed us for years. "Dear Everyone. You are screwed. No Love, The Media." MTV showed us that the only way to be happy was to do what everyone else was doing. In fact if you were NOT doing those things then you were with "them." You know, Them. (I still have no idea who "Them" is, but maybe one day I will.)

Belief is a beautiful armor
But makes for the heaviest sword
Like punching under water
You never can hit who you're trying for

And oh how you should believe what the media says to you. A new religion has come up these days, and it the prime deities are of the Media. The sky is falling, your food is poison, the Earth is melting, and you are fat. Believe this or be with the New Them. You know, those people who are against everything that the media has to offer. These are the same people that are screaming CHANGE, CHANGE, CHANGE...and when it comes they turn around and say, "This is not the change you are looking for, young Jedi...now let us go a bitch about it on the Intarwebs." (side note: For those of you new here, I've been on that band wagon...the one where I write about all the things that are wrong and how if poeple would just listen to me, everything would be okay)

Fret for your figure and
Fret for your latte and
Fret for your lawsuit and
Fret for your hairpiece and
Fret for your prozac and
Fret for your pilot and
Fret for your contract and
Fret for your car

I'm so tired of having to worry about everything. Sick. And. Tired. One day the air will kill me, while the next day I'm told if I don't breathe the air I will die. Yes, things are at a high suckiness level, but do we have to focus on these things 24/7? Yes, I know that sometimes you have to give the "good fight" to win a victory. Yes, I understand that people are totally screwing over other people. Yes, yes, yes...I know about all the horrors in the world, and all the horrific people doing them. Yes, I know that my simple existence is most likely harming 2.7 square acres of something somewhere...and that the clothes I wear will most likely come alive at night and eat me (bones and all).

Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this.

So...here is my big thing. I don't care anymore. I am tired of giving all my energy over to the hating and the fighting and the bickering and the stress and the negative energies and the Ivory Tower Finger Pointers and every other thing in the world that wants to focus on the negative things in life.

My big newsflash?

Lots of very wonderful things are going on. Today someone fell in love. Somewhere a mother had a beautiful child. When least expected, a woman was saved from being abused. At a local shelter a hungry and homeless child found food and compassion. Mines were found and disarmed. An elderly man danced to his favorite tune with his wife of 60 years. People everywhere survived cancer. Another cure was found. A baby took its first step.

I have no concern for bad news anymore. It doesn't draw me in anymore. I just don't care. Life has been tough for me, and it will be tough again. My heart is stronger than even I know. It is not my wish that people, planets and galaxies suffer, but I'm really growing weary of feeling like I'm a bad person if I don't care about bad news.

We right in the middle of the change many of us have been looking for, and I'm not about to waste this wonderful chaos by becoming neurotic about "oh now look at what They have done to screw us."

My plan is to live each day to its fullest and to love everything until my heart swells with the pain of holding gazillions of energies. When I go to bed I will continue to pray that all beings find peace...

In case you are feeling blue...take a gander at this video and know that the future is here. It is tired of the bitching, the groaning and the finger pointing. It is here...and it is ready for us to take wings and fly...

November 2012



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